Inhale.. Exhale..

20november hingga 8disember...

tarikh ni ade makne bg ak satu ketika...

mcm tahun lepas, tibe tarikh keramat nih, ak jd sayu sgt2...

pejam celik, pejam celik, da 2tahun berlalu...

kejap je...

*refresh blik dgn cite nih...

Entry Seorg minus Sosialan..

kejadah la tajuk entry ak nih, lain mcm je bace perkatan yg last tuh..

cuti da masuk 2mggu,

tp oleh kerana ketiadaan motor tersyang,

ak da makin menggila dok umah..

bayangkan, skang pkul 5.12am, n ak still xtido lg..

da smmgu lebey ak mcm nih, pas subuh, bru tido..

sok bgun time zohor...

mak ak da bising2 da, pehal jd klawar lak kan...

haih, bosan tol, mmg xdpt bt pe...

siang xde sape dpt lepak pon, semua keje...

hari2 keje ak download drama TV...

siyes, mmg da jd anti-sosial da, xde life da skang nih...

xah pape je ak bt dlm bilik ak ni hari2...

mmg sah2 la dok menghadap laptop je...

skang ni, TV pon ak xtgk sgt da...

da xheran, malas da nak layan cite pape kat TV tuh...

sebenarnye, malas nak tgk TV tu ekoran remote astro rosak...

jenuh nak tukar channel kat dekoder tuh...

last2 ak dok ngadap tenet ni jek...

haaaaaaa... streamyx ni plak xah pehal la lembab mcm siput bab* since ak blik cuti...

lansung xnak bg chance ak beron9 ngan hati yg gumbira...

membazir je duit byar bulan2... huhu...

*ak xpost lg entry pasal insiden motor ku dihempap pokok.. haih, sedih mengenangkan nasib babe ak tuh... T_T...

12nov09-15nov09

i made a stupid decision exactly on the night of 12 nov...

stupid, stupid, stupid...

and now, somehow it affecting me...

bukan sikit... but much, too much...

bertahan...

im tryin my best to face and solve the problems...

silap sendiri xfikir panjang...

silap sendiri xberfikiran matang...

(^^)

*hope semua happy ngan life masing2... ak da bt satu keputusan yg sgt2 bodo... sighs...

NJ to Just_Najmie

* u dat girl kat belakang my fren yg pakai bju itam, kan??

dlm kotak kuning halus i bt tu.. (sorry, bru uninstall photoshop, de probs sikit)

tp, kalau salah, bt xtau je r.. hehehe~

over limit: reaction after adrenalin...

so tired of fighting...

sgt2...

malam ni gado lg, ak ngaku kalah la...

letih, fizikal mental...letih sgt...

try to b the very best fren ever left...

teman rapat boley dibilang dgn jari...

sorang2 tggalkan ak, g dulu menghdap yg Satu...

pd yg tggal, sumpah ak xlarat da...

ak xley jd perfect...

ak try rendahkan diri ak serendah mungkin...

jgn la ko plak nak tinggi2 diri time ak cube mengalah...

kawan2 yg tggl, tu je yg ak ade...

penat, ari2 nak gado...

pdhal benda kecik, leh mintak maaf je...

xde la plak ak tinggi kan ego ak kan...

tolong ak, tolong faham ak...

jenuh da nak bg faham...

ambik berat sikit pe ak rase...

letih, letih, letih...

*hari-hari makan hati...

oh! Hadapi Dengan Senyuman...

lately, banyak benda haunting ak balik (bukan hantu ye!)

aduh la perit, ingat babak2 pedih nih da abes,

maseh lg berbekas, masih lg berdarah, dan masih lg terjadi...

cube jd mcm org lain, ceria2 dgn life masing,

lupekan segala benda2 xbez,

tp, susah la utk ak,

ini ak, bukan org lain...

ak nak balik umah, lepak2 umah membe,

lepak2 kat umah,

dunia ak sendiri, xde sape nak kaco ngan bende2 xbez,

hanye benda2 bez je dtg dlm life (betol ke...mane de, bukan life tu..fantasi lebey)...

tolong ak, tolong anta banyak2 happiness kat ak,

ak nak tambah lg bt koleksi,

terutama yg fresh2,

yg lapuk2 ak simpan jd memori abadi...

kuat, kuat, kuat lg...

gelak saje dgn ragam hidup ni,

ceria2kan hari hari dlm menempuh mcm2 ragam,

ilangkan rase xbest tu perlahan-lahan...

*The Dance Company - Coba Kau Bayangkan

Part of myself - yg selesai

* untuk ape sahaje ku rasakan utk 3tahun ini, ak ingin lupekan...

menyimpan hanye kenangan2 manis yg sukar dipadam dr ingatan...

Samson - Kenangan Terindah & Vitamin C - The Graduation Song

Simple Plan - Perfect

Hey dad look at me

Think back and talk to me

Did I grow up according to plan?

And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?

But it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it

I just want to make you proud

I'm never gonna be good enough for you

I can't pretend that

I'm alright

And you can't change me

'Cuz we lost it all

Nothing lasts forever

I'm sorry

I can't be perfect

Now it's just too late and

We can't go back

I'm sorry

I can't be perfect

I try not to think

About the pain I feel inside

Did you know you used to be my hero?

All the days you spent with me

Now seem so far away

And it feels like you don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it

I just want to make you proud

I'm never gonna be good enough for you

I can't stand another fight

And nothing's alright

'Cuz we lost it all

Nothing lasts forever

I'm sorry

I can't be perfect

Now it's just too late and

We can't go back

I'm sorry

I can't be perfect

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said

Nothing's gonna make this right again

Please don't turn your back

I can't believe it's hard

Just to talk to you

But you don't understand

'Cuz we lost it all

Nothing lasts forever

I'm sorry

I can't be perfect

Now it's just too late and

We can't go back

I'm sorry

I can't be perfect

'Cuz we lost it all

Nothing lasts forever

I'm sorry

I can't be perfect

Now it's just too late and

We can't go back

I'm sorry

I can't be perfect

*stupid, sooooo stupid...

Ak X Beremosi

ak xtau nape bende2 gini slalu jd kat ak...

berat... sgt2 berat...

tp ak sedar bukan ak sorg begitu...

ramai je mcm ak...

ahad mggu lepas, ecah kol ak...

die bagitau maz kene langgar...

die dihantar ke HUKM...

tp ecah ckp, die ok kot, sbb die yg kol bgtau ecah die kene langgar...

isnin, ecah bgtau ak, maz masuk ICU lepas operation...

jantung ak da sentap...

ecah ngan nizam pujuk ak g HUKM...

sumpah bukan ak xnak pergi...

tp mmg banyak sgt eseimen yg perlu dihantar dan dibentangkan...

berderet2 pulak tu, isnin sampai selase mggu satu lg...

jumaat(16/10) pulak kene g camping JPA kat jengka...

ak baru sampai bangi skang ni (18 oct/ahad) sebenarnye...

tiap2 hari kawan2 ak kol suh g lawat maz...

nizam, ecah, jimi, semua suh g...

bukan ak xnak pegi kwan2, die kwan ak, ak nak sgt g tgk...

tp mmg masa sgt x mengizinkan...

ak stress sgt sbb bende ni...

mane lebih penting???? sahabat@pelajaran???

mcm mane ak nak jawab, berat sgt soalan tu...

semalam, (17oct/sabtu)...

nizam msj...

"NABIL, MAZ DA PERGI TINGGALKAN KITE SEMUA"...

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ak diam seketika, xberemosi...

ak kol nizam...sore die da sebak bgtau mmg konfem...

ak kol ecah, lom sempat ak ckp pape, die sebut name ak n terus nanges...

ak xberemosi...

hingga ke hari ini...

dlm hati ak sebak n rase berat sgt...

tp ak xleh zahirkan lansung...

suara ak seperti biasa, lansung x berkabung dgn berita yang diterima...

ak jalankan hari ak di kem JPA itu seperti biasa...

tp ak xlupe, salah seorg kawan rapat ak da pergi...

raya haritu last kitorg jumpe...

g beraya umah kwn2 lain...

kitorg happy je ari raya tu...

n kitorg bergambar banyak2...

excited kitorg beraya...

xsangka raye last kitorg...

da dua sahabat rapat ak pergi da...

berat weh, berat...

hati ak skang mcm tgh kene gantung ngan batu...

saket, tp xkuar pape...

*Al-Fatihah untuk Mazlina bt Abdul Halim... T_T

Maafkan kalau ak tiada...K..

;)

Sekali lg diuji... mcm2 jadi mggu ni...

ak tertanye2 kenape ak...

tp ak redhakan... ade hikmah...

T_T

*beri ak kekuatan... ak xberdaya ditimpa betubi2 begini...

cube memberi senyuman utk mengubat jiwa...

harap berkesan...